20 (and a bit) new things I learnt in 2012...

I'm an only child, which means I know everything, right?

Absolutely not. During a pretty brisk 2012 I picked-up a few new things. Notable among them are:

1) Talking to a brain surgeon is intimidating. And that's before you get into the 3D pics of the inside of your fiancé’s head.

2) Watching sport is not the pleasure it was when I was a kid. Sadly, only 1 in 10 sports men and women are actually proper role models. If that.

3) Living in an Embassy with infrequent trips out onto the balcony is no life.

4) London 2012 medals are very heavy. 

5) A 74-year-old man can stand on a new knee within 36hrs. Impressive stuff, Dad.

6) Sorting out a London crash pad is becoming a real issue and avoiding the subject is not a solution.

7) In an age where numerous methods of communication are amazing, actual communication is worse than ever.

8) Like everybody, I enjoy Instagram - it's cute. But, it's about as relevant to real photography as a microwave oven is to Michel Roux Jnr.

9) Women's mags are miles better than bloke's. Vogue makes GQ look limp.

10) Working hard is fine; thinking hard is far more profitable.

11) I still have no idea what 'fine art photography' means. And if I did, it's probably not a label for photographers to give themselves. It's for others to decide.

12) In recession there is more opportunity, not less. 

13) Social media is useful in its own way. But careers are built on relationships, not 140 character blurts. How can anybody feel satisfaction when their 'friends' or 'followers' are largely a group of people they've never met? #suckers

14) iPads are brilliant, but laptops still rule.

15) Meat should be expensive and a treat. Cheap meat is bad for you. There's a reason KFC comes in a bucket...

16) When an oncologist says chemotherapy makes you tired, they’re lying. It actually means you can't do anything. Nothing at all. It's a bewildering fog.

16a) Chemo is hard. But it can give you your life back. Still don’t understand why a guy as savvy as Steve Jobs didn’t get that. Tragic.

17) Berlin is the breakfast capital of the world...

18) I seem to read more than ever, but only managed one novel this year. Biographies and magazine features dominate. No idea why the pattern has changed.

19) It's the greatest pleasure to buy boat-loads of Green & Blacks in the knowledge the (85%) stuff is good for you. In moderation.

20) No news means, well, no news! But I remain the eternal optimist.

20a) ... I'm the luckiest person in the world.

 

A little spot of cancer...

On November 26th, 2011, I wandered into and an Ear, Nose & Throat clinic to see about my swollen glands. They looked at me, whispered in the corner, then suggested a needle biopsy was done there and then. It turned out to be Hodgkins Disease (cancer of the lymph nodes). This isn't the place to get into treatments and associated issues, but it does raise a very interesting situation re: freelancing when facing a serious illness.

At the time of the diagnosis I was thinking about refreshing my website, I had lots of project ideas and ongoing discussions with potential new clients. Then for months, nothing moved forward. Nothing. In 2012, I have had, on paper, a lesser output than for many years, mainly due to the time out for chemotherapy, but also because development of my career halted. Almost overnight everything I knew and took comfort from became somehow provisional. My own wedding was postponed. Nothing was certain anymore. It happened very, very quickly and was incredibly frightening.

Only now, a year on  - and thankfully in good health - am I building again. And it's deliberate that this blog post is the first as the new site goes live.

My mind is back in the swing of cultivating new opportunities and forging new ideas. I'm way behind compared to where I'd like to be but things are moving, gathering momentum again. It's cathartic to address this in writing. It's the first time I feel brave enough to admit and then address the career side of cancer. The process seems to rid my system of the bad memories and allows me to move on. Never again will I take everyday things for granted, and that's no bad thing at all. I'll push like never before. Be a better photographer than I was before. Make things happen.

It can pour with rain, flights can be late, traffic can snarl up and software can crash. I don't care. Because I no longer have cancer.

Look out world, I’m coming through. Again.

From the archive... #1

And this is literally a blast from the past. In a previous life I whizzed around the globe shooting motorsport in many shapes and sizes. Various commissions for motor manufacturers and sponsors took me to the US, Asia and countless European cities.

This is a particular shot which always sticks in my mind. It's an Indycar (US answer to F1) during practice for an event in Miami. Many stories from the trip... almost losing my credential, death-defying freeway driving and stumbling across a drug deal in a McDonalds! Maybe things for another post... Anyway, I've always quite liked the shot.

(Canon 1V (film camera) body, 200mm lens, 100asa, 20th @F22)